I will come forth as gold.

I've had a lame few days. Like actual crap. Basically I have to look for a new flat, which is a pain. But it has also been emotionally draining due to arguments with flatmates etc. I hate arguing. Anyway, I've been wondering where is God...why is he letting this happen, I finally felt settled in my little flat near Príncipe Pío and now I have to go elsewhere. Why would God do that when just a week ago I was excited about the good work that God was doing in my flat?

Today something occurred to me though. I realised that before this whole thing happened, I was getting a bit bored. I was going off reading my bible and becoming apathetic with my faith. Just a bit, but probably enough for God to notice and want to put a stop to it.

Job 23:10-11

¹⁰ But he knows the way that I take;
when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.
¹¹ My feet have closely followed his steps;
I have kept to his way without turning aside.

2 things: 1) if God let this happen to give me a wake up call, that's amazing that he should care that much and 2) i'm now intent on keeping my feet firmly grounded in his word and not turning aside or going my own way, despite all this crap. God knows so much better than me, and that's just one of those things that I need to admit.